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Jinjasnare101
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Name: Landerz
Birthday: 10/14/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: Drummin', Video Games, Movies, Chillin...I like to practice, i play snare drum, marching, concert, you name it, drum set, all that good stuff, been doing this for about 4 years, im addicted...
DRUMMER FOR JESUS CHRIST
Expertise: Percussion, music...
Music City Mystique 2007- Snare
Music City Mystique 2006- Snare
Member of Spirit Drum & Bugle Corps 2005- Snare
Member of Spirit Drum & Bugle Corps 2004-Snare
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message me
Member Since:
12/8/2003
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| I dont know if anyone reads this thing anymore, but i figured i would post something on here anyway.
Well here's the deal. With all the stuff going on in my life (or lack there of) its hard to believe how i get along with everything. I was just having a conversation with my mother the other day about women, and i think its funny how one day they notice you and the next day they don't, and vice versa. It boggles my mind because when i was younger i would have given anything for a girl to just look my way, but nooo i was the quiet lil smart kid in the corner always tappin his fingers because he had drums on the brain. And it seems like I'm still the same, but because i wear a suit and a tie, oh NOW its time to say HI E! HOW YOU BEEN?! wanna go out sometime?
Where were all the girls back in the early college years. Now that i'm a 5 year college vet, and i'm aged out of everything, people want to say hi. I guess better late than never though right? I'm just a bit confused actually. I don't really know what I want, I don't really want to be tied into a relationship, but at the same time i would love to have someone to talk to every now then and again. And I'm kinda loosely involved with this chick, but its a casual thing so there's no tellin where that will end. And its like i could be "Mr. Debonair" and dress to impress, but its like i dont see a point anymore. And now that my sister is getting married, its like DAAANG she's only two years older than me, so does that mean i got two years to figure it out???
I dont want to figure it out yet, I havent finished college, I'm waaay too indecisive to think about things of such importance, I can't even decide if i want water or juice to start my day most of the time. So WTF?
Am I going crazy? Is it just me? Am I talking to myself. I pray. I pray every night. I pray when i get really lonely, and I pray when Im happy too. I know God has a plan for me, but its frustrating at times, because i just don't know what to do sometimes. I really really like this one girl (the casual one), but thats what its gonna be, but at the same time, I find myself attracted by so many different girls. I know that Women's beauty is meant to draw guys in, and I am single, but I feel just like I'm betraying her trust or "interest" by like taking out other girls or what not. I mean i wouldnt freak if i saw her with another guy. I wouldnt do anything really, I would prolly clam up and feel like a loser. I know she likes me, thats apparent. Its just complicated. Why did you have to go and make things so complicated??? Not so much Avril Lavigne though...
I think that if i relax and just let things happen everything is going to fall into place. Love is such a complicated thing. I'm glad i figured out all that Love mumbo jumbo early on in life, or else i would be SOL right about now.
I just gotta figure out women. Thats the next quest....will it happen? Maybe to a certain extent one day.... is that today? no, no it isn't. haha.
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| And now it has come to an end, I am aged out of competitive marching, and I am now a full time teacher. It was fun, 9 Solid years of performance, passion, intrigue, women(haha, YEAH), and triumph, thank you Jesus for allowing me to do seemingly impossible, and for allowing me to live my dreams. thank you to my family for being my support, watching me begin, and being there for the end. I could not have asked for anything more in life, and if I had to do it again, I wouldn't, because Im satisfied. Thank you. 
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| Life has just now hit me in the face like a big ass rock kinda hits someone if you throw it at them. I have a week then my last performance. It has been a long 8 years and I have reached my highest potential, at least in my eyes I have anyway. The culmination will begin on April 20, and from there on out, its nothing but balls to the wall. I am ready to go, I am ready to leave, I am ready to take the lead, I am ready for the hype, I am ready for the night, I am ready for the excitement, joy, and delight. If there was ever a time in my life that I was not hesitant about something then this would be that shining moment, its almost like i'm getting married or something. This is truely going to be the beginning of the rest of my life, and I would hope that all you YOU, any of you, maybe one of you? ok it dont matter, my mommy will be there, and that matters. hhahahahahahahahahahahaaahahaa got em. NUTTER CENTER. APRIL 20. Thank you Jesus for bringing me this far. I am ready to go. Awreet! | | |
| With 6 more weeks, its starts to dawn on me that i will never be able to competitively march in WGI once again. and its like wow, what will it be like? how will i feel? am i ready to go? the answer... yes. I am ready, GO time baby. Awreet!
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| WE GOT UNIFORMS HELL YEAH.
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